June 2010
突然间有一种很迷茫的感觉。
始终如一。 那种该有的知觉并不在。那种该有的踏实感，安全感，都不在。我仍然站在空气中。
有人救我么？如果我跌的话。
Need to brush up more on my sensitivity. Grah.
And my freaking-out-easily part. *please don’t stand so close!*
Too engrossed in a Hillsong Video, I forgot where...
Heh.
-sigh- This whole craze of "SCHOOL" is starting...
Assignments assignments assignments.
The only thing I’m happy about is that GC is just snapsnapping snapsnapsnapsnap. And that ONOW would end. Like in two weeks. But I hadn’t touched ANY of my essay. @.@ VAS summission tmr and we’re doing WIRES. >.<
-sigh- All the hands on things. Hope photography turns out good. And the old maid doesn’t ruin it for me.
I think...
“Did anyone tell you that your smile is like a 100 year old vampire? It sparkles.”
– Sandra&Me (pickup line crazy)
Taking back my words. No. Eating it.
My friends remembered.
Really. I couldn’t cry. I just couldn’t laa. But I really felt like crying.
They are just SO AWESOME.
Now my bed is like a single size bed cuz they put a human-sized piglet in it. OHMYGORSH…
Just pray that tomorrow will go well and saturday, I shall be able to go to the conference. Seriously.
Today is my birthday.
One date which no one remembers. Only when facebook pops it up. Thankyou, facebook. But I’m still grateful for the people who posted onto my wall.
Apparently, no one from my family remembers. And that saddens me the most. Hrrms, you know why. You know how. You know what.
Spend the last day of my 16th year old with my poly classmates folding hearts for our CIP Project. No one to approve....
Toy Story 3 was UH-MAZING.
Those who have toys/had toys/having toys MUST WATCH. Seriously.
Heh. Watched with the bitches who call themselves bitches yesterday evening. OhmyG0RSH. It’s so good:D
KOI Bubble tea is good too! Oh, and the not-so-good chilli crab is good too!
Khaye la.. I like spending time with them. Even though half of the time I was thinking about my project and not really paying attention. Try to...
I do not know.
Broken, wretched, torn, ugly. Lord, won’t You just save me again.
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It all seemed so bleak.
Because it’s June and the bipolar side of me takes over again. Happy, sad, happy, sad. No one wants to go near such a person, right?
So that’s why.
I wish I had never existed to suffer from pain. And the only outlet I know to relief from this pain, do I still stand still on it?
Didn’t really wanna post anything lately. Not doing real good.
Lack of spiritual life, lack of friends-communication, lack of.. almost everything.
I need to get a life once again.
I just feel everything going negative once again.
So here goes…
Was trying to be a douche on the beach by making foot prints all over and taking pictures, I failed. Then I reminded of myself about a picture with two sets of footprints becoming one and the story about a man complaining that God wasn’t with him when he needs help and God replying that He was carrying him all the while.
So yah. So I tried to make a picture out with my...
I know it’s kinda late but I just got up from a nap. Who cares?
Lols.
It was raining all the way when I left the house last morning and.. hadn’t even stopped when I reached ECP 1 hour late with Sam and JL. I thought it were to continue. But it just stopped. Then when we were playing frisbee, the dark clouds came again. BLOWN AWAY~~ You have no idea how relieving that was.
...
What, is death?
“If roses are red, violets are blue. Then what the hell is the color violet?”
– NigaHiga (Ryan Higa), 2,000,000 Subscribers
(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cd7IR004tls)
It might be very subtle things, very small things,...
But all I see is being positive and being optimistic and being happy.
Who can stop me? Myself. =.=
So do you want to stop yourself to be happy? YOUR CHOICE:D
Arnie-waysss. I caaaaare. I seemed like I don’t, I seemed like as if I don’t even bother about anything. But I do. I care. A lot. I worry about everyone=.= Kk. No good being a worrier.
Alrights. I’m weird. Cuz I’m...
Today seemed to be the best day of June already.
Kk. Maybe June isn’t as bad as I think. 10 more days and counting for doomsday.
Today, I will be getting my DSLR. Hurray! Tomorrow I will be bringing it out for Seven-11 Outing! Kk. 7 girls, 11 of us. The rest of the 4 are bitches. Lol. Jk.
Made jelly today:D:D:D:D Peach Flavoured:D Although screwed up the Almond one which I thought many people would loveeee…. Hmmmmm. Maybe I shall...
(Sandra talking about Edward Cullen)
Edward: I have to tell you something.
Bella: Wut.
Edward: *flies to mountain* *strips* *shingshingshing*
Bella: *eyes blinded*
Then Ris Low will start playing her BOOMZ BOOMZ SHINGZ thing with BEP music. Awesome!
Very grateful to God for the only two people in my life that remembers. Both my maternal granny and my beloved grandma.
11 days and counting, not hoping. That terrible day that I cry myself to sleep every year. I hate it. I wished it never existed. But it’s ALRIGHT.
I shall.. turn a viewpoint towards it. I’ll be enjoying with children and my new classmates anyway. I shall…...
"Not because I need to or I have to, but because I...
This was the only thing that was stuck into my head during the altar call today during service. Somehow, someway.
“TRUTH is something that never changes. That which is True, is Good and it is...”
– Faris, HTI Lecturer (SP)
Admit it. I'm not "quite happy" with them. I'm...
Miracle they always get me so high. Not every other week. Not every other day. But every SINGLE day. Lols.
Okay.
So the thing is, I’m bascially quite detatched from tumblr posting becuz of schoolwork. I get to do HANDS-ON things. Not computer on things. Except for GC, maybe. Next term’s gonna be photography already. And secondly, I’m quite happy with my school friends now. And I’m quite comfortable complaining to them cuz we complain about the same things. Erm, khaye, basically I only...
Presentation tip 1: Never dress better than your...
*stares at audiences-to-be*
*whispers to sandra* “Fail liao la. You look at them, jeans, t-shirt. Us? Shirt, long pants, heels. Ohmygoodness. Isn’t the dress code casual formal? Ohmymaggienoodles. They are like… ‘I am just nicely-dressed. Enough. :D’”
I'll be fine as soon as June gets over and done...
But before that actually happens, could you just bloody hell shut the hell up?
Everything just came crashing down and I feel like...
If I had a world to myself...
…it would be purple, with six legs. With pink Hello Kitty buses driving all over the yellow fields. Because when it snows, it would have yellow and white polka dots all over(: And there would be a green chair in the midst of the fields, for God. And all of us would just dress in the shades of blue and sit on the floor, in equality.
Need to get myself away from you.
And nearer to Him.
Not you. But God.
Becuz He loves and you hurt.
GO AWAYYYY;(
I just find them weird.
It’s not like what they were or how they treated me. I thought it was fun laughing. I thought it was fun going for guys-movie-outing. I thought. A lot.
Why is it that I feel more girly yet more distant?
Yeah, I know. I have girly needs. But that’s once in a while. Other than that, I’m just merely a guy in skirts.
Well, it hurt to me realise that only with Ziv I never changed...
givesmehope:
Today, my friend’s 3 year old brother lost his battle with cancer. The last thing he said to him was, “I’m afraid to leave, because I’m afraid the people that I love will cry.”
He hated seeing people cry, even though he knew he was sick, he was afraid to make the people he loved cry. Zander your strength and passion, GMH.
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live4u:
(via el-kew)
… is the starting letter for insecurity.
… am who i am because of the people whom i mix with.
So he actually went through all the bloody crap telling me all the homework he have (when I have them too) that he didn’t want to do it.
He could fairly well tell me that I am a lousy, fatass leader and “I WON’T DO IT” in my face. Not like I would be angry or whatever. Refusing to ACKNOWLEDGE the facts that I have given him. Right. He didn’t KNOW ANYTHING FROM THE...
“At that very moment I fell down the rabbit hole, I’ve been told what I...”
– Alice, Alice in the Wonderland.
Still my favourite pictures(: We’ll take better ones next term. When we get our nice cameras.
Khaye. I was like acting I’ve never seen toilets with mirrors before. So I starting calling them all to go to the toilet and take pictures. So bimbo. Khaye. Wait. No. It sounds so wrong. The handicapped toilet was at the corridor, with the door opened wide. Hence. Haha!
But yeah,...
Nothing good seemed to happen everytime this year.
It’s gonna crash again, I know.
I’m gonna fall again, I know.
Don’t have to remind me by replaying all these incidents again. Thanks.
And I don't know how to talk to him anymore.
He says I’m getting more and more impatient with him.
But am I?
Back to talking about HTI.
Well, was feeling quite hurt after that. I do not know why. Philosophy and blahblahblah.
So that was quite about it.
Guess I really need to pray more about this. I feel my faith crumbling because of this.
-sigh- This is really getting way out of hand.
Well.. I have fantastic classmates still.
Was talking to CL today about everything else in sch. Like leaving them in another 3 months. Talking...
Feeling quite hurt after the HTI lecture.
I’ll tell you LATER.
May 2010
Saw Eve’s post first thing when I saw her blog.
Yeah, agreed.. My classmates are forever nice to me, no matter what I do, who I am or whatever it shall be. I just stress myself up. I love them so much I don’t wanna leave them after these 6 months. T.T
Even though they might be critical smtimes;
Even though they might be nonsensical smtimes;
Even though they just simple put fire...
