Pray that her fever cool it and her sore throat will be gone… TOMORROW! I guess I have a need to do this so many times through the night.
*poofs*
March 2010
CAN YOU IMAGINE IT? CAN YOU? CAN YOU? YES! YOU!
-sigh- It’s really such a bad fall laa.. :( Her chin, nose and arms are all wounds and blood. Grr. And she still apply the 青草油 which makes her wound looks even worse. -sigh-
Dad says we have a kid for a grandma. She likes super sweet stuffs (when she have to control her diet and sugar level) and she like to go EVERYWHERE (which is only the market and the temple) alone. Not that she cannot go out laa.. Just that my parents hired a maid to look after her ma.. Not look after us. We can go hungry.. But she cannot fall time and again ma.. -sigh- She dun understand leh. Keep telling us that the maid is BUSY with housework. WHAT’S WITH THE HOUSEWORK MAN?!!!!
-sigh- Gotta keep the rest of my holidays as free of things as possible during the weekdays already…. Must camp there. -sigh-
Heart pain. Just hope that the incident the other time dun reenact. I will have a heart attack, soon. *worries*
-sigh-
O_o… < //3…< /3 … T^T… :’(… :(… -_-
It's not the first time it's happening.
Yeah, it happened again. My grandma fell… while she’s going to see the doctor. >.< Her high blood pressure and diabetics.. -sigh- Gotta come up with a plan with my bro to hide all the sugary stuffs in the house already.
Going to nag at her again tmr… -sigh- Why don’t my cousins understand that she really wanna see them more through the year and not just every year once or twice or maximum three times? It’s seriously not just a five-man work to get her to control her diet. It’s a seventeen-people issue. Really. Even more than that now.. twenty-one.
A lot of people asked me if I wanted to have teaching as a career. Can I do it? Am I meant to do it? It’s not really part of the point anyways. It’s just like as if ice-cream. You want to eat it? Do you have enough money to even buy it? Well, teaching is becoming more and more like food to me.
Err.. funny representative. But still! When you don’t feel hungry you don’t eat then think about eating all the time, when you eat then you will feel hungry. @.@
It’s fun, SOMETIMES.. definately not all the time… Just look at my aunts… they get so angry and fed up sometimes, the other times they just laugh at what their students do…
Like the other time Jovis brought his class jokes to tuition:
Jovis: “Cher, cher!”
ZQ: “Stu, stu?!”
Still, I can’t be them… Of course.. I’m so… less disciplined and less firm. I can’t even get them to SIT. @.@ Yah, talk to them can laaa. I’m so trained in Gift.. but teach? Err.. Pls? Mood swings? What if my students tio hit by the swing.. LOL?
Paranoid? Fear?
Not sure. Been thinking about this issue for two days already. It’s troubling me quite a lot. Maybe it hadn’t had a good start in the middle of last year and the “loneliness” got me hooked up. I mean, yuup, I dun like.. err.. ‘friends’ in class. It’s weird. They are classmates. But they term themselves as your friends. Well, I don’t like that kinda relations. Doesn’t have good endings.. That’s one of the reasons.
Well, I’m a weird person. I have my funny way of doing things, adapting to things, getting things done and etc., etc. right? Other people DO have their own way of doing things as well.. but it’s just that my way, my method and my thinking is not really what people can accept. Funny in the sense that.. people just don’t see it until they really get to work with me or even do things with me. It’s… this way.
I fairly well didn’t wanna join the camp… Rejected the senior’s offer (Thank goodness it’s not compulsory) But orientation is compulsory. @.@ And becuz of this, I’m freaked out since last Friday. I don’t know why. Maybe it runs in the family? My dad don’t have much friends… after work is home. My mum don’t have much friends either.. staying at home everyday dunno do what… My bro neither.. Me? I don’t know. My youngest bro is one POPULAR guy.. Only different one in the family. He’s happy with it though. Loads of friends… But he doesn’t seem to share much about himself or his thinking with his friends… I see a change coming up. Cuz that was what I used to be too.. -sigh-
School… I don’t think I’ll like people talking around and the Sec 4 scenario coming back again.. But well, maybe that’ll be good since I get to have loads of alone time… Then again, what Meiying told me just got me chicken out again… “If you’re alone, they’ll surely ask you if you wanna go lunch with them de~” Ohhhhh, please laa@.@ Okay, I’ll try to deal with that when that comes……. Which will be in… err… two more weeks.
T^T
Somebody teach me how to use the bluetooth on this machine!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.< This is NOT funny, pinkie, NO.
O_o
Tumblr looks so small now… Hahaha!!! So happy with a BIG SCREEN(: Now I don’t feel like as if Meiying’s computer would eat mine up already! :D
I so love 乖乖！ Pretty-in-pink! Haha! Just hope that the silver edges don’t peel off:S Hopefully. Don’t. Have to call her 乖乖.. If not will turn out like Meiying’s computer.. 坏坏！LOLs~ I’m glad I bought the pink one~ Cuzzy the pandy panda white one looks *ahem* weird *ahem* with black rim… :D I’m happy(: Except that the bloo-tooth doesn’t seem to work yet and I need time adapting to Windows 7 and the new keyboard… That’ll take two weeks for me, I guess.. While I continue letting myself get sucked in by Sims3 for the rest of the holiday that’s left…
-sigh- Then school shall START.
The caption of the picture on http://babiesmakingfaces.com says: luuuuurve shiny things! Hey Mom. Mom. Mom. Mom. Mom…. Can you bring it over here so I can grab it with my cute, sticky little fingers and put it in my mouth? Pleeeeeease? Please? Please? Please? Please? Please??? Ooooh, SHINY!
- to spend less time on Facebook and Tumblr
- to talk to Kristel and Weisheng more often. Also Etsuko Yixuan and Yensiang. AND YQ!
- to be nicer to people who annoy me
- to treasure what i have
- to be more spiritual and do QT every night (sigh) +spend time with God more often
- to set my first priority right
- ….
lol why you forget me. (pulls sad face)
and meeee!!! :(
“The hero must go and face his challenge alone! But if Bolt taught me anything, is that you never abandon a friend in the time of need. When your team mate’s in trouble, YOU GO! Whether they ask or not, YOU GO! Not knowing if you’re coming back dead or alive, YOU GO! Knowing your deepest rival would appear before your eyes, YOU GO!”
—Rhino, Lightning Bolt (Movie)
It's kinda funny. No. Really funny.
Sundress hates me —> Balloon hates me —> I don’t know why and cannot remember why. I can’t be sure if this is mutual. But I just don’t like their attitudes in Gift.
And FC told me the reason. “No reason.” <333!!! I so love this reason =(..)=|||
Sometimes i just really WONDER why people hate me so much. If they dislike me, at least I can understand… HATE? I didn’t kill their pet dog, did I?
*snap* oooops.
Things have been going well. Learnt much from peepos. Many many peepos. I’m still sad. And reluctant. Will learn to face them as they comes(:
Thank God for the patience I had today. With balloons(:
Things have changed a lot. Was it overnight? I’m not sure either. I just feel uncomfortable. But will get used to it… soon enough. Sometimes… it’s when other factors get into your comfort zone. Expand it? I mean, your comfort zone. Yeah, like Yiyun says, “Time to lift up your heads and see what’s in for you in the future.” Not sleezing away in life, looking for the past. -sigh- Makes so much sense.
“Whatever that is said in this conversation, remains in this conversation.”
—a rule to follow, eh?
I shouldn't just focus on how bad my terms are with that balloon.
There are much more things that I should amend.
I’d rather he take a chopper and chop me up, then wake up and let less people dislike him. -sigh-
Tomorrow is the day.
The day when FC left and I would be so sad.
The day when CY have nationals and extra training and is unable to come.
The day when Shauny boy have so much to do in school and not sure of coming.
The day when Andala say she’ll go becuz I’m going.
The day when Meiying say she’s sick of this crap and is not going anymore.
The day when we take pictures like as if it’s the last session of Gift.
The day when we hear our last words.
The day… that is filled with sadness, tears and evil grins of the others.
But we should all look further. And further. AND EVEN FURTHER. A break from this nonsense. One day… Just that one day filled with sadness. When we reunite, it’d be for a better cause. And when we come together again, we might just see a difference. Hopefully. But don’t be too high on it. You might just fall with this test of gravity.
Really pray that tmr, just tmr especially, God would give me so much courage, patience and tears that I will ever need.
SOMETIMES, NOT BEING INVITED MEANS YOU'RE NOT INVITED.
Since when did YOU invite us to your “big balloon parties”? Not that we’re being mean, know? Sometimes we just don’t like your balloons’ existance.
Do what you want people to do first. Like, stepping on others’ tail then allowing people to step yours back. =.= You make yourself cheaper by pleading us to invite you to that stupid chill out.. from you.
Continuously saying that you wanna leave doesn’t make you more expensive either. Just L-E-A-V-E already! >=( “Now I know why you wanna leave GOR”, “If there is really such a nonsense in GOR, I’d really leave” HELLOOOOOOOOOOO, you’re the one creating such nonsense. >=( How well do you think we wanna treat you cuz you spoilt the place? It’s really getting more and more difficult trying to live with your nonsense in Gift and we still tolerated it. WHAT ELSE YOU WANT US TO BLOODY DO?!
Lack of emotions. Other than being bored, it’s being happy. Angry? Only at that idiot. Not considered laa.
But I doubt I need more. It’s more than enough.
I'm so disturbed by what the idiot had done. And is going to do. And whatever he'll be coming up with. Meiying would be so angry if I told her about what's gonna happen on Friday. >:(
You think Mrs T so free write 4 pages of crap for him uh?
